I feel better tonight than I ever do. My heart rate is 68 (normally 86!) and I feel calm, awake and happy. Now I know - it takes eight and a half hours of sleep followed by five doses of caffeine. I can at least promise myself to continue the caffeine.
I feel out of touch with almost everyone. Funny how summer is supposed to be this big expanse of relaxation and setting your own perogatives, when in fact it is a swirl of trying to fit in, and pay for, half the stuff you thought you would.