Local Woman Disappointed In Human Nature (or, You're So Emo!)

I woke up with the feeling of Delhi still in the back of my throat. Hot, itchy, as if I had smoked a pack of cigarettes through the tailpipe of a dump truck. I woke up from a dream I didn't like, the same dream I didn't like last night and a few nights before. I've started to feel insane with all the dreams, because they correlate so closely to what I'm afraid of in real life right now. What has been haunting me with its potential to change everything and make me sad. What it is, I won't tell you. It's not really that important that you know it.
So I woke up and felt crazy, and then I decided to do something to face the fear directly... I did something I really shouldn't have. I felt crazy though, and I did it, and I shouldn't have, but I got the answer I needed. I guess I needed it enough to steal it, because that's what I did and now I have it.
But I don't feel crazy anymore, and as much as I hate dealing with the thing I'm afraid of, it's better to actually grab it and throw myself into the effort and wrestle it to the ground than to keep looking for it and wondering if it's there. The struggle is so much more peaceful than the fear.


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p.s. Happy Flag Day. And by the way, I'm going to be in Virginia, in VA Beach to be specific, from June 24 - 28. I'm starving for friends. If you want to hang out with me while I'm there, call me on my Kansas number (since it's a cell phone and I'll have it!). You will be like drinking clear, cold, crisp water on a hot day. Standing on pavement. Like in an amusement park in a long line for a roller coaster. You get it.