I can't take my eyes offa yaouw!!

Some people have asked where my blog address came from, referring to the tocolderwaters portion of it. Well, I thought to myself, I'll tell you. Firstly, I wanted to use part of the theme song from the movie 'Closer' (the Damien Rice song) because the song was not only the new soundtrack in my head but had also assumed great symbolic meaning and emotional value. We actually used to play the DVD menu in Mt. Hermon just to listen to the looped snipet of the song. (How statistically likely is the phrase "looped snipet"? I'd like to know. That's one more reason to really like Amazon.com) Anyway, said song contains the line "the colder water" and I wanted that, but it had already been taken. Blasted blogger name-takers. And so I changed it a little bit so as to add extra symbolism for myself.
I made it 'to colder waters' because I knew that that was what I was doing again. Jumping around from place to place and from life to life a few times, especially in the past five years, has exposed a pattern to me that every new life feels cold and scary when I first look at it. Graduating college looked like that, leaving Virginia for India, leaving Woodstock for Kansas, with smaller jumps in between, each new thing seems like wandering into cold water. It's shocking in a way that's completely reorienting even if you thought you knew it was coming, and it makes me want to turn around and go back to wiggle my toes in the warm sand forever. So I guess when I made this blog I knew I was heading back to colder waters again.
Things tend to be less cheesy if you don't say them out loud. This is a good reason not to have a blog.

p.s. and the blog title is the only thing I know how to say in Korean, learned from my good buddy Jung Min.